Monday, March 21, 2011

I want to know...

I found this poem, or whatever you want to call it, on an amazing blog called I read these words and literally found myself in tears.

There are periods of my life I really let go and just have a good time...i love those moments, but i find i am more in balance when I also take other moments to check back in with myself. I need beatiful songs, touching poems and quite reflections to really put my life back in to perspective and to remember what my goals in life are. Having a great time with friends and family is only half of what life is about...the other half is learning about yourself...reminding yourself of the important things...its about figuring out what makes you laugh, what makes you cry, what makes your heart and spirit swell with passion...So, when I read these words below I was brought back to a place of vulnerable realness. It brought me to tears and I was reminded of what i want...I want to say these words to someone and I want them to say it to me...People always ask me (because I am single and some people just cant fathom being single) what it is i am looking for in a partner, man, husband...and for the first time i have found words to describe to them my answer. I am sure I am not the only person out there that would describe this as their answer too.

I love romance, but these words are what it is all about...this reminded me of what i deserve and although i am so happy with my life and i love having fun, sometimes your soul is touched and you remember what really, deeply matters. I hope you are touched by these words as much as i was, and am and will be forever!!!

The Invitation by

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.

It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.I
f you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to knowif you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Why I love St. Patrick's Day!

I have been totally neglecting this blog and I apologize. I have started a new job, moved downtown, and have just been really really...well, HAPPY! For some reason I turn to this blog when I have something to write about that really speaks to me or touches me...i write when I really feel something. When I am very happy and carefree like i have been the last month I don't tend to really sit down and think deeply about things...i don't know if this is good or bad, but either way i am happy.

With that being said, my absolute favorite holiday is right around the corner and I finally have something to write about. ST.PATRICK'S DAY!!!!! I don't think I have always loved this day as much as I do right now, but sometimes people ask me why in the world I love this day so much so it got me thinking. I looked back on pictures from previous years and laugh out loud at how much fun i have had on this day. For awhile there I went to Savannah,GA for this day and always, ALWAYS loved it. If you haven't made it down there for St. Pattys Day, or any day for that matter, i would strongly recommend it! Most recently I have come to see what I have heard so much about over the grandma and aunts have always loved this day and have always made a day of it coming up to Columbus and having fun all day. They go ALL OUT...they have shoes, shirts, necklaces, grandma even dyes her hair green for the big day! Being with them (and several cousins, my sister and some family friends) last year really solidified my love for this day. We dress up in ridiculous clothes and accessories, drink green beer, dance like no one is watching, and laugh so hard your stomachs sometimes could you not love a day like that???? I know I am soooo incredibly lucky to have a family like i do that really understands what it means to let loose every once in a while. I walk around on St. Patrick's Day and have never been prouder to be walking with the people I am...ridiculous as we all are looking, i would never want it any other way!!!

Check out some of the pics from last year and my collection of green things to wear and then ask could you not have fun on this day if you were with these people???